Julien Baker, Torres - Off the Wagon

Drivin' the block to put off gettin' home It's a whole lot of work to get a little bit stoned Threadin' the needle, changing the dose 'Til I'm immune to the cure When you have not a thing else left to look forward to Outside of hittin' the road Burnin' one after your shift at the restaurant Getting a ride to the show Oh, it makes sense to wanna feel good It makes sense to want not to feel They say living is something that you choose But it makes sense with no chips left to lose Everybody knows you're off the wagon Still hangin' on for dear life While it's draggin' you beneath the wheels Think you're finally findin' out the pageant Ain't worth it, no one does it right You get the hand you get and try to deal