Joyner Lucas - Monsters

I see these monsters all the time They show me bad things in my mind I try to run, I try to hide But they still come back every night Ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters Ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters I see these monsters all the time They show me bad things in my mind And I don't even wanna sleep in my bed now (bed now) Most days in my head now (uh) Kinda feel I been lost and I'm checked out Keep it real, I been livin' on the edge now (yeah) I admit it, I been trapped in my own hell (own hell) On my back, but I won't bail And I hate it where I'm at, but I won't dwell (yeah) I just hope I don't go back to my old self (uh) Wish you knew what I seen, but I won't tell Let you go first I've been tryna find me on a soul search (uh) Lost things that I love, but it don't hurt (what?) Tried the therapy shit, but it don't work (no) Hopin' I can find me with my own words But I know I gotta let my soul decide Think about peace when I close my eyes Only I can save me from my own demise (own demise...) I see these monsters all the time They show me bad things in my mind I try to run, I try to hide But they still come back every night Ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters Ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters I see these monsters all the time They show me bad things in my mind (yeah) I know you wonder how I'm rich, but I'm still lost (still lost) Lotta wounds and I'm still scarred (yeah) Money never mean shit when you're so broke God seems so close, but He's so far (far) Only thing is my kids that I live for Kinda wonder what the fuck I got rich for (yeah) Have you ever seen an angel with a pitchfork? (Huh?) Ever wonder why you ever got picked for? (Uh) Only shot five times, but I missed four So you go first I've been tryna find me on a soul search (yeah) Lost things that I love, but it don't hurt (no) All the therapy shit really don't work (yeah) Say I need self-love, but my own words But I know I gotta let my soul decide (uh) Think about peace when I close my eyes Only I can save me from my own demise (own demise...) I see these monsters all the time They show me bad things in my mind (yeah) I try to run, I try to hide But they still come back every night (uh) Ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters (uh, uh) Ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters (yeah) I see these monsters all the time They show me bad things in my mind (yeah, yeah, uh) And I know that nobody's perfect I look at myself, don't know who this person is My alter ego's a whole different version of me When the real me is closin' the curtains (yeah) I'm tryna make changes, I hope that it's worth it I'm haunted by trauma, I'm holdin' discernment The monster inside of my soul is emergin' This song is my therapy, hope that it's worth it (yeah) If you can relate, I hope you can escape (yeah) Anything that's internal that you can't face (uh) It gon' stare in the mirror, look you in the face I be prayin' for you if you losin' your faith (yeah) Hope you heal from the shit that got you in your way If you feel like you're trapped and you're losin' your way (yeah) Then just know there's somebody like you who can say We our worst enemy and we two of the same I see these monsters all the time They show me bad things in my mind I try to run, I try to hide But they still come back every night