girl in red - Ugly Side

I'm not my best today And I'd be lying if I said it's probably a phase I was born with a case Of imperfections and a whole lot of mental disarray I need to know why I'm Jekyll and Hyde I wanna know what is up with me I need to know why I have these ugly sides I get despicable for sure I'd rather not have it show Does that make me unlovable? I feel it creeping up on me when I'm not watching Uninvited, always there in my subconscious There are parts of me I ghost I suppress them for the most If I could make them all go quiet, that'd be something Keep calm and carry on Wise words to live by, but I'm likely doing it all wrong I can shine like the sun But if I don't get it my way, next thing you know, the storm is on I need to know why I'm boiling inside I am the worst of me sometimes I need to know why I have these ugly sides I get despicable for sure I'd rather not have it show I can be cute and loveable I feel it creeping up on me when I'm not watching Uninvited, always there in my subconscious There are parts of me I ghost I suppress them for the most If I could make them all go quiet, that'd be something Awesome Awesome Um, I don't know, I think I I think I allow myself to be rude and mean To the people I love the most and The people I love the most are the ones who get the worst of me And I don't like that, why is it like that? I don't know I'm dropping a new podcast soon so you can hear the rest of it