Polo G, Nino Paid - Play This At My Funeral (feat. Polo G)

(Jacob made this) (julioo!) Alright My mom was an addict and pop wasn't there (he wasn't) Trust me, I still ain't care My stepdad came in, showed me the ropes And he died, and it's messed up, ain't it? I know I know how it feel when your house supposed to be a home And you feel like it's nowhere to go I know how it feel when you try your hardest all year And you still got nothin' to show (I know) I never thought I could be anybody but a nobody God had to prove me wrong (had to) I never thought I'd be able to jump on stage And people would know my song (damn) I spent 22 years in this world And I'm hopin' I still got 22 more on the clock My lil' sister is 19 Just had a baby that nobody told me about (nobody told) My calls been goin' to voicemail, how I'ma call on you when you never can answer? (How I'ma call on you when you never can answer?) As soon as my life goin' good, it seem like another person diagnosed with cancer Nobody told me that kids like me, who grew up with ACEs, die way faster So maybe I'm already cooked (uh-huh), it feel like my life a disaster (it feel like my life a disaster) It feel like I'm cursed or trapped in a cycle of life where I never could win (I never could win) I'm used to the hurt, I'm trapped in the cycle of pain where it never could end (never could end) I've been on the other side, nobody told you the grass ain't green as it seem I gotta go hard, the burdens of all my brothers been livin' through me (they livin' through me) I do it for all my homies and most of the people who told me I couldn't (said that I couldn't) I help anybody that I can, I know that they ain't do it for me and I shouldn't (and I shouldn't) I'm showin' my dog a whole 'nother way to his life and it do feel good As long as they smilin', I'm happy, they ask would I change, and I wouldn't I never thought I could be anybody but a nobody God had to prove me wrong (had to) I never thought I'd be able to jump on stage And people would know my song (damn) I spent 22 years in this world And I'm hopin' I still got 22 more on the clock My lil' sister is 19 Just had a baby that nobody told me about (nobody told) Off Addys, I'm trippin', I'm focusin' now I'm tired of this way of livin', I wanna get out It be the niggas who's broke, they ain't give me hand, be the main ones holdin' it out I admit we was close, our relationship couldn't advance 'cause you never showed when it count Said he was hurtin', they told him just be a man, so he put his .40 to his scalp The burdens of all of my brothers been livin' through me, now I just made an M in my sleep My mama won't help, and my brother been sent for a B, would you just go and visit at least? I been hearin' the feds got a board with a picture of me, told lil' bro, "Ain't no killin' this week" Had to learn how to talk the language criminals speak with this shit 'til we stiff for the streets They thought I'd be dead 'cause where I was left at You don't wanna be ahead on the death track Now I know all of my challenges tough, when it's easy to people, don't ever respect that Just when I think I'm progressin', here come a new problem that's causing a setback Tryna turn all my losses to lessons, I hope I'm evolvin' enough for my next match My mom was an addict and pop wasn't there (he wasn't) Trust me, I still ain't care My stepdad came in, showed me the ropes And he died, and it's messed up, ain't it? I know (it's messed up, ain't it?) I know how it feel when your house supposed to be a home And you feel like it's nowhere to go (it's nowhere to go) I know how it feel when you try your hardest all year And you still got nothin' to show (still got nothin' to show) I never thought I could be anybody but a nobody God had to prove me wrong I never thought I'd be able to jump on stage And people would know my song I spent 22 years in this world And I'm hopin' I still got 22 more on the clock My lil' sister is 19 Just had a baby that nobody told me about (nobody told me about)